This is what happens when you wander into the studio at 11:32 on your way to bed – or what you thought was on your way to bed.
Canvas done (I think).
I’m actually nervous about sharing this online with the world, but am bravely doing so anyway. I’m not actively part of a local artist group and my artist friends are scattered about the world. I’m going to consider you all a part of my creative community now.
Constructive criticism is most welcome.
I don’t normally include a note about what a piece means to me or what has inspired it…preferring people to be inspired by what a work means to them personally, but I’m going to make an exception in this case.
This week I have been in contact (directly and indirectly) with several folks who are traveling a difficult and challenging path.
This canvas evolved into their story. Sometimes one can be so busy “running” that they lose track of whether they are running towards something or away from something. The journey itself becomes all-consuming and their is no clear destination in sight. This can result in an unnecessary struggle because with no goal or “end” hope can be difficult to hold onto.
It can be frustrating for those of us who are only peripherally a part of their journey to watch helplessly while they struggle and in some cases give up. Our offers of support can seem inadequate.
When it comes right down to it, we each journey alone, even if we have a great support group – and so many don’t have that support or are unable to effectively connect to others.
So I did what artists do – I created it to the best of my ability.
…And am in awe that a canvas started many years ago developed into something that is relevant to the here and now. I didn’t consciously set out to develop this theme. It just sort of happened without plan or intention.
I lost my cool today. I lost sight of the progress and got drawn into the big world of what’s left to do. Sometimes it just seems like there is so much to be done and that I can’t keep up.
“How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time.”
This old saying is true, but it’s hard to be encouraged by it when there is more than one elephant to deal with.
My house seems to be a mess. My yard is huge and an overgrown mess. I’ve started some necessary home improvement projects. I want to reduce the clutter. The list goes on and on. When I lose focus on the positive, I start adding to the list until it seems impossible to handle.
One bite at a time. I must prioritize and be grateful for the small wins. Find joy in the improvements and remember, most of all, that I am doing it all to live a more intentional, simple, and happy life.
That being said, the studio re-do is done! This stuff is gone.
My recipes are all sorted and organized. From this
Today is Tuesday. I haven’t really “accomplished” much (but I take hope in that the day is still relatively young).
Yesterday; however, was a good day. A good day in many respects: I was breathing, my family was all still breathing, the weather was beautiful, I still have my home and a running vehicle, there is food in the pantry and lights when I turn on the switch – I could go on and on and on about why yesterday was a good day.
But specifically – this is gone! One more small step towards an intentional and simple life.
And this – I don’t know where it’s going. I am deliberately and consciously trying to work in a style and with a method that is different. When I would usually do “this”, I’m doing “that”. I’m trying not to work on this canvas out of habit, but in a spirit of play.
As Tolkien says, “Not all those who wander are lost.” I would like to add, “Not all who are lost, wander”. I’m not sure if I’m lost today or not, or if this neglected canvas is lost and needs to be found.
I’m going to wander around with this piece for a while and see what happens!