What happens if you’re not paying attention? Good question. It may actually be more than a question…more like an actual lifestyle issue that needs attention. We may be talking about my problem with addressing and paying attention to more than one area of my life at a time.
By now, you may be asking a question of your own. What is she talking about – or trying to talk about.
Remember my health “crisis” last October? Emergency surgery, intestinal obstructions, the imminence of death. What I didn’t share was that a month later I had some out-of-whack lab results that indicated pre-diabetes.
My focus was fully on my health. I started exercising. Walking about 3 miles a day. Dropped most carbs from my diet. Only whole grains. LOTS of veggies and some fruit. Dropped almost 40 pounds. Felt fantastic!
because I felt so great, I started getting lots done around the house. I decluttered and then organized. I ripped up carpet and made plans for all the little (and big) stuff that needed to be done around here.
because the house was looking better, I had the opportunity and peace of mind to go on a creative binge. Lots of art-making.
you guessed it – somewhere along the line, I forgot (conveniently) about taking care of myself. I quit paying attention. One missed day of exercise became two. Eventually it wasn’t a habit at all. I’ll just have one slice of pizza with my salad turned into pizza with no salad at all. And so on…
And the house? Well, it only stays decluttered and organized when you actually pay attention to it every day. Otherwise, you wake up one morning and you’re right back where you started.
So, keeping in mind that I’m having an anxiety attack right here, right now…let’s establish this as a judgment free zone.
I started this blog with a promise to myself that I will always be open and honest. I may not be telling you everything, but what I am sharing is the absolute truth.
I struggle with keeping my life together and sometimes I feel like such a failure. I start to believe that I must be the only one in this same struggle.
But, I know that isn’t true. Others are seeking to find balance also.
If you struggle with not “having it all together”, here’s some encouragement for you. You are not alone. We’re in this together!
So, here’s the “before” photos…some yesterday and some this morning.
I’m going to work towards improvement, but not perfection. There can be room in my life for health, home, family and art.
There can be celebrations for small successes.
There can be forgiveness for failures.
I can try to pay attention.