I think I’m coming back to the land of “normal”. I also believe it and I am quite certain that thinking and believing are two different things. So, I’m going to conclude that there is a definite improvement in my “being-ness” since both thought processes are in play.
We had a fun Fourth of July celebration at the home of old friends. They are friends that we have known for a long time and are not necessarily old although not as young as they used to be. It was going to be a smallish celebration, but as most good parties do, it grew and grew… There was laughter, food, beer, tension, fireworks (mostly the actual physical kind, not the human interaction kind) and more food.
I was stressed going into it all, but by the end of the night was doing pretty well. Time spent with folks you know and who know you can be healing. And I did not kill any small child who threw loud noisy things to the ground behind me. I don’t know what those explosive devices are called AND the small children will never throw them near me again, but I didn’t permanently harm any of them…I promise.
Today saw us dropping my oldest daughter off at her summer job. She is working a Renaissance style childrens’ summer camp. She’s the daughter with culinary school and an in-process degree in Food Service Management. She’ll be working in an unairconditioned kitchen in July in Central Texas. Fun times…
She did almost all of the work herself with some manual labor assistance. She got an air-conditioner and everything….pretty sweet. I totally forgot to get a photo of the finished dwelling…a description will have to suffice. Corrugated metal on the ceiling, a sari-fabric hanging light, a full mattress covered in pillows, fabric lining the walls, a desk/table with storage underneath, and a chair. Very snug, cozy and climate controlled. I’m almost jealous…except for the whole kitchen job thing…been there, done that.
I followed up our morning excursion with a three hour nap. I definitely feel better. I woke up to a quiet and empty house. I took a moment to wander through and assess the level of untidiness. On a scale of one to ten with ten being complete chaos, I think we’re hovering around a 13.
It’s pretty “lived-in”. That’s okay. We’ve done a lot of living so far this summer. I love a challenge. I will start out tomorrow with my list in hand and start to tame the beast.
For now, I’m going to be happy to be me.
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Visual artist playing with collage, assemblage and whatever else I imagine. Homemaker and homeschooling Mom of four children aged 10 to 24. Ready to fully embrace life and leave regret and fear behind. Each new day is an opportunity to love, create and live with intention...