Have you ever noticed that when you are away from home, it’s easy to dream big dreams and make big plans, but…

…once you are back home and in the thick of things, it’s easier to just go with the flow and accept things the way they are – even if it’s not the way you want things to be?

So much to do and being overwhelmed are causing some serious anxiety for me and I feel like I’m losing momentum.

But I’m going to persevere.  Pile by pile, box by box and item by item, I’m going to keep working.

Today, all of the rest of the paperwork from our business that used to operate out of the house went to recycling (except for the absolutely necessary financial and tax documents that we have to keep).  Six boxes of paper gone.  Four neatly labeled and stored away.

Winter clothes are all washed, sorted and packed away or donated.

We’ve discovered that the water leak in the hall bathroom is much worse than we thought.  It’s spreading to the bedroom we were using for storage while renovations were taking place.  That room has been bumped up on the list for redoing.  Unfortunately, we’re going to need to do some rather serious demolition and rebuilding.  All that stuff has to be moved somewhere.  I’m not sure where since the kitchen and dining room floor is waiting to be coated in polyurethane so we can start using it again.  All of that stuff is in the living room and hallway.

Honestly, my life feels totally out of control right now.  I could just sit and cry.  But, I’m not going to.  Or at least I’m not going to for long.  Maybe for just a bit.  Then I’m going to fill another box for donation…

…and keep dreaming about my big, cleared out rooms with clean white walls and a shiny wood floor holding only those that I love and a few things that I need and enjoy.

So, I’m holding the anxiety at bay and holding on tightly to the dream…