Some days it’s easier to live in gratitude than others. As someone who can all too easily free-fall into anxiety and depression, I’m concentrating more and more on living in gratitude. It’s one of my most intentional of intentional living goals.
Today would be an easy day to just give into the sadness, gloom, depression, anxiety, worry, and every other conceivable dark and sorrowful emotion that exists. I’m not going to do that.
I’m not denying the negative things that have happened and are happening today. I can grieve and feel sad. It’s just not going to be my whole focus.
Amongst all the stuff that’s happening in the world, life goes on. Good stuff happens. Bad stuff happens. We laugh. We cry. We play. We work. We rest.
My small, little life continues…sometimes parallel to the lives of others and sometimes complexly intertwined.
Some days it’s really difficult to find something to be grateful for. In some ways it feels callous to seek out joy when others are suffering so greatly. The truth is that suffering is with us always whether it makes the news or not.
Seeking joy is an act of faith…a defiant action in the face of violence and hatred.
I believe in mankind. I believe in peace. I believe in goodness. I believe that good people are behaving in kind ways as we speak. I believe that good wins.
And so, I am grateful for little things.
I am thankful that, although we only have air-conditioning in two rooms of our house and it’s really hot today, someone has offered us a free window unit to help out. And grateful for a relatively small electric bill that is helping balance the budget this month (as a result of not having central air).
I’m grateful for two paid-for cars that started today when we needed them too. And hopeful that tomorrow they will do the same.
I’m grateful that my family is healthy and that we are not dealing with serious illness as so many I know are.
I am thankful for a full refrigerator, a new washing machine, a bed to sleep in, and a roof over my head.
I am grateful that I have not seen a snake today.
I am thankful for the chickens that are running around my yard eating insects and providing us with fresh eggs.
Right at this moment, I am grateful for a husband who graciously volunteered to clean up the mess from a beer that exploded in our kitchen because it is so hot in here. That way, I can continue to write this post.
I am grateful that our family has a plan for a better future as a result of a budget that gives us hope to be out of debt (except for the mortgage)in about two years. I can’t plan an awesome vacation right now. We don’t have a pool. I’m hot. But, I have hope that things will get better. So many folks don’t have hope.
I’m finding that if compare my life to others and find my life lacking, I’m not looking in the right place. That’s a choice I’m making. I can look around me and see what I don’t have or look somewhere else and see that I am lucky and blessed.
I am lucky and blessed. I have choices and options and hope.
My hope for you today is that you can find something to be grateful for and find peace.
- the equipment for Direct TV – we are finally out from under our contract. YEA!
- a box of old records
- 5 empty bottles of shampoo and soap from the shower – how did I not see these before?
- an old camera and case
- another stack of cut-up magazines