It’s been too long since I wrote something uplifting, inspiring or philosophical here. I’m just so busy putting one foot in front of the other that I don’t have the time or energy for deep thoughts. I’ve reached the point where I feel that if I don’t keep moving, I’ll stop completely.
The challenges just keeping on coming. A difficult recovery from surgery for my sister. A flooded bedroom from a leaking air conditioner that resulted in a wall and floor (yes, another one) being destroyed. Stuff piled everywhere as we try to salvage what we can. Trying to adapt to a full school schedule. Bills to pay. Car repairs and wrong parts and pieces that don’t fit where they are supposed to. Planning for art classes. And a handful of other things going on that I haven’t even shared.
One at a time wouldn’t be much of a problem, but one after another is getting old.
I’m trying not to whine. And I’m trying to be optimistic. I know it will all resolve itself – one way or another. I’m aware that most of it is out of my control.
In a way, this time has been a blessing.
Simplifying life can be challenging. Sorting out the important stuff is sometimes hard to figure out. Priorities shift and often it’s impossible to put things in proper perspective.
Until…there is literally so much that you can’t get done because there is so much to be done!
That’s when you have to pick out “one”, “two” and “three” and let the rest slide. I’ve left things undone lately that used to seem terribly important. They can wait I need sleep or I can’t cope.
Number one priority has to be family. Quieting the endless to-do list running through my brain so that I can really hear what loved ones are trying to tell me. Remembering to say “I love you” and be present as much as possible. Not yelling and remembering that everyone is dealing with the stress right now – sometimes in ways that I don’t understand. Individually. it is all too hard. Together, we can somehow work through it.
After family, priorities shift day to day or minute to minute. A lot isn’t getting done. There isn’t enough time to rest. It’s one thing at a time and sometimes that one thing isn’t finished as well as I would like or at all.
This posting is a perfect example. I’d love to write something wonderful or at least proofread it, but this will have to do instead. These imperfect words are the best I’ve got.
I’m thankful that I have hope. In the big scheme of things, my problems are small. They are all surmountable. I have food in the kitchen and all that I need. Time will solve most of my problems with a little bit of patience thrown in for good measure.
When all of this is said and done, I will have learned a bit more about simplicity and living intentionally.
I am blessed.
And I am tired.
Visual artist playing with collage, assemblage and whatever else I imagine. Homemaker and homeschooling Mom of four children aged 10 to 24. Ready to fully embrace life and leave regret and fear behind. Each new day is an opportunity to love, create and live with intention...