The sun did come up to day. It’s not shining brightly, but it’s there. I am grateful. I can’t say that I spent any amount of time as I went to bed last night worrying about whether the sun would rise or not. It’s just not helpful for me to worry about stuff that’s out of my control. There is nothing I can do to assure that the sunrise will occur. I’m just grateful that is has so far. And optimistic enough to plan on it happening again tomorrow.
I’m pretty sure that I’m not doing “enough” to make the world a better place. I admire a number of people that I believe are doing a great job of it. I try to emulate some of their behavior. I’m sure that I fall short.
I think a lot about what I am doing and what I should be doing. I worry about being “enough” and doing “enough”.
Is it selfish of me to buy a new art journal or should I donate the funds to the local food bank?
Do I need a new pair of shoes when there are people in the world doing without?
Is it right to complain when my air-conditioning goes out when much of the world will never even have that luxury?
Am I a horrible person to be resentful at times when I feel that I have less than someone else…or turn a blind eye to the fact that I have so much more than many?
There is much wrong in this world. That has always been the case. It would be easy to fall into the pattern of just not caring at all. To turn a blind eye to all of it. To give up, or not to try at all because it seems hopeless.
To be sure, there are many problems to be solved. I think that it is unlikely that we, as members of the human race, can easily even identify what all of the problems are, much less prioritize and figure out how to solve them. It’s just not that simple.
I’m a reasonably intelligent and fairly well educated individual. This all makes my head and heart ache.
There is so much anger and hurt in this country right now. So much name-calling and hurtful rhetoric. So much reactionary thinking and actions.
We are all affected.
“Win” and “Lose” are inadequate words to use in this situation. They don’t appropriately describe anything about this situation at all. Nothing is finished. The work is not beginning or ending…it is continuing. It’s not a race in a straight line and not really a race at all. I don’t expect a finish line to be crossed in my lifetime or that of my children.
The race we should be concerning ourselves with is the human race. The people that we know, those we have yet to meet and those that will remain strangers to us.
To acknowledge that one groups’ fears, anxieties and needs cannot take priority over another.. That we all have value and are important.
We must all dream of and work towards a better world…a world where me must do the work we are called to do.
We must all live in this world…the world that the sun rose upon today.
We must do this together in our own small or large way.
We must be thoughtful and kind.
There is not just an “us” and a “them”. That is divisive thinking.
There is me and you.
With a big job to do.
I don’t have any glib answer.
If only it were that easy.
I do know that my thoughts and study in the upcoming days will be about the definition and meaning of words like “rights” and “needs”.
What are my rights? What are our rights?
What do I need?
What happens when my perceived rights infringe upon the rights of others?
What is fair in that case?
How often do I take someone else’s word for what is right and fair and just?
Am I sensitive to the needs of others and what impact my choices and decisions have upon them?
Am I being selfish or uncaring, or am I standing up for what is good and just and fair – for myself and for others? Where is that line, and is is static or fluid?
For now, I am going to talk to my daughter about what is going on in this country today for just a little bit and then…
we are going to get back to work doing the things we need to do in anticipation of tomorrow’s sunrise.
Visual artist playing with collage, assemblage and whatever else I imagine. Homemaker and homeschooling Mom of four children aged 10 to 24. Ready to fully embrace life and leave regret and fear behind. Each new day is an opportunity to love, create and live with intention...