So much time has passed and so much has been happening in that time.
It just became easier not to write rather than try to sort out what could be shared and what couldn’t in such a public forum.
Much of it needed to be shared privately with just a few until answers were found and then it turned out that answers were not going to be found in a timely manner.
Some of it was not my news to share first and involved planning in process for someone else.
Mostly it was just all too emotionally wrought and dealing with it privately just seemed the right thing to do.
Now, we are weeks down the road and things are starting to sort themselves out…not all in a positive manner, but that’s life isn’t it?
The best way to live is to understand that life is about accommodating the “new normal”…in whatever form it presents itself.
First off, several weeks ago, I finally went to see my primary care physician about my altered vision when it became apparent that visual therapy wasn’t working. She immediately ordered an MRI of the brain.
The MRI showed abnormal findings. Simply, and in short, the nerves in my brain show damage to the “insulation”. It is peeling off. The damage is significantly advanced for my chronological age. Next, we began the cycle that anyone with a significant medical problem quickly becomes familiar with…
Waiting, doctor visit, waiting, testing, waiting, results, doctor visit…..
At this point we know that I do not have Multiple Sclerosis. That is good news. I have something similar. Not so good news. As the doctor pointed out, anything other than a tumor is great news. The rest is manageable.
The doctor fit me in for an emergency appointment to rule out MS. Now, I wait for a regular appointment in a little over two weeks to figure out anything else. I can live with that. Somewhat impatiently, but I can do it. I can’t see as well as I like, but life is not significantly impaired. It is my “new normal” and all things considered, not the worst possible scenario.
There is other news, but the needs of the day are calling. I have an Art class to teach shortly and supplies to gather…then off to Sherwood Forest Faire to work.
My hope and prayer for anyone out there dealing with a “new normal” is that they find peace in the journey.
Life is good
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Wow. Life brings it. I fought with am unknown condition and it is stressful. But hanging on to the fact that, I could do what I could and then had to let it go, that helped. Sometimes there are unexpected blessings in a new normal. I hope you find many.
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Thank you. So far, mostly doing well with just occasional bouts of panic when I venture to “what if” territory. I know those thoughts are pointless! I am definitely learning to be more intentionally positive.
praying for you lady
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