Today I woke up ready to do it all.
I wanted to de-clutter the house and move all this sh!t outta here.
Then I wanted to catch up the laundry, finish packing up the winter clothes, do all the dishes, mop the floors, clean the windows…
and mow the yard and hack out the weeds and finish the flower beds and…
NO. Just no.
The words “bipolar” may never have been officially written down in any medical records, but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t live here – in a relatively mild form, but still something that needs to be acknowledged. The doctors have known it and I have known it. I just spent so many years without insurance that we’ve skirted around the issue.
As past history has shown this is all probably a reaction to dealing with some hard stuff last night and being really down.
And if I give in to the mood and don’t deal with it intentionally, it could start cycling and that’s just not fun for anybody.
So instead of trying to do it all and failing miserably and being miserable and making everyone around me miserable…
This is today’s list:
- Sort the mountain of laundry in the hall and work on it – taking care to fold or hang up everything as it finishes in the dryer. No more piles everywhere.
- Pick up obvious trash laying around and remove it from the house.
- Gather all of my art card supplies that are scattered about the house and organize them in order to work on them. This will clear numerous surfaces and help the overall appearance of the house.
- Make some handmade paper from the plants I started drying last fall. They are officially dry and shedding all over the studio. If it works, store the dried plants neatly away. If not, compost them and try again another time. I need to stop pushing art making to the bottom of the list – only to be done when everything else is finished.
- Tidy up the paper-making station when done so as not to add more mess.
- If I come across anything to de-clutter, add it to the box (after I put away the clean laundry that got dumped there when trying to clear the table for a family meal).
- Remember that tomorrow is another day and don’t stress about what isn’t on this list or what is on the list and doesn’t get done.
And lastly, before I move on to other things…I found this quote while doing my morning reading and thought it quite appropriate following yesterday’s post…
Just knowing you don’t have the answers is a recipe for humility, openness, acceptance, forgiveness, and an eagerness to learn – and those are all good things. Dick Van Dyke