So today I choose to begin again.
I was not “all healed” yesterday.
I didn’t get everything “right”.
I messed up – a lot.
This mindfulness stuff is hard.
Feeling the emotions without reacting to them doesn’t even really make sense – yet.
I will try again today.
And maybe I will do just a little bit better.
Maybe it will make a little more sense today.
I’m searching for that “aha” moment.
There’s so many feelings going on right now.
It’s a lot “out of control”
One day at a time unless that seems like too long…
I’ve typed up a “recovery daily checklist”.
Meditations, reading assignments, journaling, exercise, art time…
and (sigh) therapy today…