Category: Depression

Live. Create. Tell the Story

  I’ve been asked how hard it is to write and share personal details of my life on this blog… (and the tears start now) To be sure, some of what I have written has been difficult to share. Some of what gets typed never gets published. Sometimes the mouse hovers over the publish “button”…

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Possibilities

Yea!  I’m writing three days in a row. Things must be going better. That’s not the only sign.  Optimism is definitely the word of the day. My laundry room has been tidy and clean for over a week… and I’m able to see and appreciate the tidiness and organization instead of the unfinished plywood covering…

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A “What If-er”

  Mood swings, irritability, frustration, guilt and self-recrimination.  That seems to be my constant lately. Some days I wonder if it’s worth the effort of maintaining any sense of optimism. Some days, hope is hard to come by. And then, something happens that turns things around and lightens the load… On Mondays, I teach a…

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I Once Was Lost

Hello. It’s been a while. I haven’t wanted to write very often and when I did, I couldn’t. This has probably been the worst I’ve ever been. It hasn’t all been bad, of course.  It’s honestly been a roller coaster ride.  Bad and good.  Highs and lows. Fun times and disasters (literally).  We’ve had hurricanes,…

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The Next Step

It’s been more than a month since I’ve posted here.  I’ve written (or tried to write) a few times, but the words sounded negative, without optimism, and frankly, more than a little whiny. Why did things keep going wrong?  How unfair that the harder I tried to simplify and improve our quality of life, the…

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I am writing today because writing is a good thing for me to do…not because I can think of anything that really needs to be said. That parallels my day today also.  I am doing what needs to be done although none of it seems to be particularly important or relevant. I washed clothes so that…

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Today

Okay, maybe recovery from a depressive episode isn’t a one and done deal… And maybe honesty with oneself about how hard life has been is a good idea… I think I’m really back in the light again this time. I feel good. I’m writing. The past days have been about rest and art and changing…

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