What the hell does that even mean?
I wish I had an answer or some profound advice to share with you.
What I do have is my stories and maybe that can help…
I’ve been writing for quite some time about my desire for a simpler, more intentional life.
I think I may have even written that exact sentence before.
Today, I am frustrated…
that the house is still a mess
that we are still in debt and struggling
that I always seem to have something to worry about
and that I seem to be making no progress towards my goal.
And yet, as I look back over this year’s posts at this (almost) mid-point of the year, I realize that I have done a pretty good job of sticking with my “motto” – being grateful and letting go.
I have become better about experiencing gratitude in the midst of life…even when it wasn’t easy. I am more grateful for what I have and more patient with dealing with the challenges than I used to be.
(most of the time)
I’m still not grateful for dog hair…lots and lots of dog hair.
I am grateful for my dogs (again, most of the time)
I am grateful that my dogs are not bald…that they have hair, but once it comes off of them…
Not grateful (at all).
I suppose if I took up spinning yarn I could use the damn stuff, but I suspect the fibers are too short and then what the hell would I do with the stupid dog hair yarn? I don’t knit or crochet and I sure don’t need any more projects…
Nope, not grateful for dog hair.
Maybe that gratitude will come with more practice.
I sincerely doubt it though.
And, as far as the house goes, I am still decluttering.
Sometimes, despite my best intentions, too much comes in.
But, I haven’t give up (totally).
Some days (weeks) I don’t even try.
But, some days I do a lot.
If I wasn’t decluttering at all, what a mess it would be!
Again, the journey continues.
I’m not standing still.
Although I’m doing a better job of resting when I need to.
So, it turns out that I needn’t be so frustrated today.
I’m doing an okay job of moving forward on this journey and letting go of that which is heavy and for that…
I am grateful.