Monday morning here at the old homestead and it’s quiet. Such a change from yesterday (all last week really).
Husband and oldest daughter are at work. Second daughter is back at school. Son is in his room. Youngest daughter is at a friend’s house.
Just me, the dogs, chickens, rabbit and the kitchen. Today is kitchen cleaning day according “The List”.
It’s actually a great relief to have the list to fall back on today. I’m really worn out mentally and physically from all the activity and people of late. I got up and looked around at the state my house is in and sorta freaked out. Then I sat down at my desk and saw the list.
I don’t have to clean the whole mess up. I just have to clean the kitchen. The rest will wait. I suppose that some people have brains that would logically come to that conclusion, but I don’t. And that’s okay.
I’ve resisted the urge to WRITE IT DOWN for a long time. I didn’t want to admit that I struggle with whatever brain oddity I struggle with. I just want to be competent and organized and have it all together. But I don’t and that’s okay. I’m getting it all together…slowly. At the end of today, I will have a clean kitchen. YEA!
What else has been happening here, you might be asking…well, maybe not, but I’ll share anyway because you are obviously reading this…
I am reading a book. Just for fun. Nothing intellectual or informative or on the best seller list. Just a book. I used to read all the time. Back before kids and stuff. My daughter is in the summer reading program and I decided that I could read this summer too. In fact, I actually wrote it on my list.
I don’t know at what point in my life I quit reading. I guess it just got put on hold until there was time.
I’ve rediscovered the fact that we only “have time” for what is important when we “make time” for it. It’s another one of those things we have to make a conscious decision to do. Otherwise, the time we have just seems to drift away from us and we never get to what’s important or what we enjoy.
How many times do I catch myself saying “I’m going to………”
- I’m going to paint the pantry that still has ugly vinyl manufactured home wallpaper
- I’m going to paint the living room that is still beige ten years after I moved in – I HATE beige
- I’m going to start on that giant canvas that’s been waiting a year
- I’m going to lose weight
- I’m going to read that book
- I’m going to call that friend
You get the idea…
I don’t have forever to wait. I have right now. And maybe tomorrow. Nothing is guaranteed. I’m not going to quit planning on tomorrow, but I am going to quit waiting on it.
My next list is the “what I want to do list”.
Visual artist playing with collage, assemblage and whatever else I imagine. Homemaker and homeschooling Mom of four children aged 10 to 24. Ready to fully embrace life and leave regret and fear behind. Each new day is an opportunity to love, create and live with intention...