Friday night I was tired. Not really sleepy – just tired – the I don’t want to think, make a decision, or accomplish one more single thing kind of tired.
I ended up sitting on the sofa, re-re-watching a movie, eating popcorn and sharing it with my dog. A movie where the good guys win and the bad guys lose and there is no doubt which is which.
There were things undone on my list and a million more that could be on the list, BUT…
We have accomplished so much around here lately. Things are getting done that I had given up on doing. The time spent together is more intentional. All in all, life is good and better than it has been for awhile. Not perfect, not “done”, but moving along towards a goal…a dream. That’s all good stuff.
BUT…sitting and resting is good stuff too…and I tend to forget that. I usually keep striving and going, thinking that I will rest when it’s done. That’s a misstep on my part. There are limits to my ability to “do”. It will never all be “done”. I am somewhat of a perfectionist after all.
If I don’t pause every now and then, there is really no sense to all the doing. There is no appreciation of the progress and no realization of the accomplishment. There is no joy.
So, today I will rest some. There is a part-time job that has to be done. But if it doesn’t have to be done today, I’m not going to do it. I’m not going to look for projects. I’m not going to look for things that need to be done. I’m not even going to proof this blog.
I’m going to sit and look at what has been done and enjoy.